you should read this.

so for the past few days it's been real tough for me.

i mean like it's been one hell of a roller coaster ride.

there were many incidents this few weeks to show that anything can happen in a day.

Almost everyday i type out a message supposingly to send to people i care about telling them how much they mean to me and thanking them for everything they've done. telling them how much i love them. but i never really got to that.

the heath ledger incident told me that the most unexpected thing to happen can happen just like that.

u wouldnt believe how much time i spend thinking "what if?"

i love all my friends alot as im sure u do too. i just thought u guys should know this. u never know, god my take my life today.

and when someone asks me this question, " what if i died?" the only possible answer that comes to mind is " u can't die, u just can't." i cant even begin to imagine the answer to that question.

everyone around me brings an impact to my life. i dont think i could go on without every one of u guys here with me.

so please, do me a favour, dont die.