Memories.

2009-10-02T21:19:00.005+08:00

i wonder if they really mean it when people ask you how you are? do they even care? do you ask because you have to? because it's what people usually say to each other?

you tell me.

you know when you have a problem that's bothering you and you tell someone. they always say, do something about it. well, it aint that easy. i've got pride. i've got issues. life is unfair.

okay enough whining. so i heard the all american rejects concert was delayed? im broke. but i need to go for beyonce :(

i cant believe it's already october. how fast time flies.

i really do wish i could be 17 forever.

i liked it this year. it showed me how i've grown.

2009-09-27T22:21:00.003+08:00

the past and the present.
& it's undeniable that some things, they never change.

hi world, im just going to highlight my week holiday that's about to end now.

it was one hectic week. pretty dead in between but happening in the beggining and the ending. really, what's life without drama?

i've got some issues of my own.

some confusing emotional complicated you dont wanna know things going on in my head. heck, i dont even know what that is about.

so school starts tomorrow.
&

im not going.

that's one more day for me to rest?

2009-09-22T01:30:00.002+08:00

haih, megan fox.

anyways, it's been a great few days lately.

how about you?

raya has been awesome. better than last year.

great food, great atmosphere, great people.

it's all good.

watched the VMA's earlier and i saw beyonce's performance, and oh man i am excited for beyonce !

incase you didn't know, she's coming here ! yes, malaysia. she canceled on us once but she's coming again. i love her (:

even carrie said if it was between adam lambert or beyonce she would CONSIDER IT. and that means a lot coming from carrie the dieheartadamlambertfan.

i do not want this holiday's to end.

told myself im going to study tomorrow, we'll see.

2009-09-20T03:11:00.004+08:00

i am definitely enjoying my holiday's already. took thursday off, because i say so (:

school, shmool.

so let's see what i've been up to.

* in really perky voice *

oh i've been watching gossip girl season 3, 90210 season 2 and the beautiful life first season ! it's like totally awesome.

* perky-ness ends here *

so friday i got out of bed and got myself a life. i met up with carrie, juli and kee jun for a movie. met sha before that but didn't meet with people who messed with my head.

then then we watched gamer. that show is sick. the concept is so errhh. saw loads of trailers to new movies though. all alien and technological. so cool.

got back pretty early. surprisingly. parents are getting way more paranoid nowdays. getting on my nerves.

then it was saturday, sha and nat picked me up went to kl like almost everywhere in kl. IT WAS TIRING. shit tiring. walked from bb to times square to klcc to petaling street. dude we were everywhere. i was tired. my legs hurt.

but it was nice. entertaining to say the least.

talked to sukim on the phone earlier and now my eyes can barely open.

did i mention that today also happens to be raya !

SELAMAT HARI RAYA YA'LL !

it also happens to be my mum's birthday.

remind me to get her something (:

have fun guys ! play safe (;

2009-09-11T17:52:00.002+08:00

so trials are almost over. wuhoo. one more week to go, then its my favourite holiday, RAYA !

good food, hopefully good money and people coming over (: bliss.

so despite having trials and all that i still managed to go out once or twice, you know whatever. haha. it's the weekend again today and im going out. i need a break yo.

so last saturday, we had our very own little road trip in kl. driving around. this is what people who just got their licence do. JAKUN. * coughsarahcoughparmar * but she let me drive though. my driving is cool :) we all took our turn to drive. pictures are up on facebook.

so then it was sunday, and it was a day away from adieb's birthday. he called and asked if i wanted to join them at red box, curve to celebrate.

i went, had a great time. pictures are not up yet. met them people. it was good.

i met adieb exactly two years ago on his birthday. so after this birthday, i've known him for 2 years now (:

so yeah im heading to curve to have dinner with mum then catch a movie later with sha, nat and kid.

enjoy the weekend people. while it lasts. (:

2009-09-01T07:00:00.002+08:00

look at what i found !

a huge bunch of people trying to break a record on the most people doing thriller at once. how cool.

well it's in spanish but im pretty sure that's what it says.

HAHA.

hello, people of the world.

it's been awhile.

August has been hectic.

going out is way too fun for me to stop doing. heh.

oh but i shall stop now.

trials are 24 hours away !

i have honestly never felt so unready for an exam.

it's either i havent been studying or it's the stress of trials.

i like to think its the latter.

so how are you?

2009-08-26T03:29:00.003+08:00

you know, i really dont know why i do this.

probably cause im bored.

so let me fill you in with what's been going on in between pictures. that would make it more interesting. haha.

so the fasting season has begun.

i hate not being able to eat, i am a food lover.

trials are really really soon but somehow still not panicking.

which is amazing.

so many movies i haven't seen.

A LOT. i need to watch movies.

first few days of the holiday was fine, but now im slacking.

going back to the whole no sleep thing im doing.

hopefully, i'll get my act together.

oh and also you should check this guy out.

he is amazing.

he wrote a song, about twitter.

so awesome.

for you twitterers !

but do check out his other songs.

ah youtube.

2009-08-20T00:41:00.001+08:00

because i am awesome, im going to hook you up with amazing photo's which are cheesy but lovely at the same time.

and because im bored.

2009-08-19T23:57:00.005+08:00

im just going to say that,

WORLD STAGE WAS THE BOMB.

best concert so far. and i should know cause i've been to plenty of concerts.

never seen so many live acts in one night.

and hands down, all american rejects were the best.

so i've been really slacking lately as you can tell.

so even when there really is H1N1 in school, im going, tomorrow.

yeah i know. weirdo.

it's okay we have another week of holidays next week.

what am i going to do during merdeka you ask?

im staying home babeh.

REALLY. HOPEFULLY.

talked to my gay partner today.

the whole day actually.

since i woke up till about 6 in the evening.

it was awesome ! i've missed her.

2009-08-14T00:16:00.003+08:00

okay i lied about giving my self 18 minutes.

it's 1 hour 36 minutes later and im still here.

i need a good nice slap in the face.

anyways, i've decided to become the stalker-ish person that i am and show you pictures of hot people on my blog.

oh shuttup i know you like it.

this is such a sexy picture.

gossip girl stars !

i got this on her twitter.

i dont know why but i like this picture.

chuck bass !

okay so there isn't many today but hey, it made me happy !

hahah.

2009-08-13T22:37:00.002+08:00

false alarm about going to school. heh.

so im not going to school either tomorrow.

im just going after school to go to the orphanage. sivik project thingy. i am so not bothered but i have to. sadly.

im feeling pretty guilty about not studying. the whole day. i didnt study. man.

then tomorrow definitely not and saturday nope and not sunday either.

i am hyperventilating now. PANIC.

and im not making any sense.

OH GOSH.

i better go now. im giving myself 18 minutes !

2009-08-09T04:33:00.004+08:00

it is currently 5.23 am, so i decided to blog?

hey natt ! there's a kangaroo up my sleeve eh !

im having bad back pain and stomach cramps, food cravings and mood swings.

this is what being a girl means sometimes.

okay so i think i've decided to cut my hair.

the picture was taken a minute ago btw.

my hair is long !

yes a lot of people are going to make a lot of noise but i haven't had a hair cut since ever and i hate having this long hair. i don't look nice. haha.

yes and i know im suppose to be a girl and all that but i think im more of a short hair kinda person. it's okay guys, i'll find someone that likes me for who i am.

bring on all the positive energy yo !

good morning to you, have a great day.

2009-08-09T00:36:00.004+08:00

so on weekends instead of going out i've been having webcam conference calls. see how nice i am to trade my saturday for them.

so i only go out on sundays now. HAHA.

Let me show you what it's like.

this was today.

5 way call.

how awesome right?

4 way !

this was last week.

just us goofing around.

we are so awesome/cool.

HAHA.

i love you guys !

2009-08-05T23:30:00.004+08:00

remember how i told you guys i went to bukit tinggi.

well this is what it looks like.

the place belongs to my cousin's boyfriend's family.

it is HUGE.

it was amazing ah.

the living room with it's open air concept.

one of the " houses "

they were like 5 of them?

and this is where we all slept.

the first thing that hit me when i woke up was the smell.

man it was great.

the river, the nature, the greens !

and the first thing i thought was " it doesn't get better than this "

i felt like such a nature lover thanks to this place.

so im not going to school tomorrow and im on skype with sukim now.

skype is so cool. man.

night homies !

2009-08-02T19:58:00.006+08:00

It's about time i start blogging again.

My history books are on the table, im all set to study.

NOT.

I just got back from yet again another outing.

It was a fruitful day. Not only did i meet people i havent met in a while,

i got MTV MOSH PITT TICKETS. yay me.

this is incase you dont know what's going on.

im so excited, i just cant hide it !

since i haven't been blogging, i thought i'd enlightened you with what i've been doing this past few weeks.

okay these are definitely not in order, and i have been doing way more than that i just dont find it necessary (:

oh i did go for a vacation with my family though.

bukit tinggi.

BEAUTIFUL.

i've been talking to natt lately, aww i miss her !

she makes my day, anyday.

im eating mcd's for dinner. ergh fattening.

catch you guys later !

2009-07-25T02:29:00.002+08:00

Hi.

I feel as though every weekend is a short holiday. Every weekend is an adventure. I love weekends. I love how im out and about. To be honest, i already have plans for next weekend and the weekend after and obviously this weekend too.

I like living in the moment. Not living for the future or living in the past ( eventhough i occasionally wish we could go back ). Now is good.

Is it time yet for us form 5's to buck up and start getting serious for real? Switch on your panic buttons cause i know i should.

Like the song says " life's like a highway you just got to ride it. " Im going with the flow. Going with where life takes me. Hopefully somewhere great.

I think that's about enough crap for a day.

What would you do if you know today's the last day you'll see the sunset and the moon?

2009-07-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

i think by not bloging im defeating the purpose of the whole " memories " idea right? So many things are going on that i barely have time to go online anymore.

Pluss i go out way too much ( which is bad considering that its already july ) too bother bloging about everything i do. But there are some memorable events that happened. Like sleeping over at carrie's, cheer 09 and more. Maybe i'll get into the details when im free.

It's great that my parents are being considerate and letting me out all the time. Only exception is that i dont ask for cash too often, which I think im handling quite well.

I think i've made more memories this year already and its only july. Oh well. We all grow up.

I like where i am now. I feel great. I have sufficient amount of cash, great friends, good food, good company, cool with my parents, feeling free, less stress, and more. Im only missing my best friend Natasha Lim. I've gotten over the others if you know what i mean. (;

I like having things in common with people. I've always had things in common with sukim. I have amazingly so many things in common with natt and im starting to think i have a lot in common with sha too. It's cool.

Im actually in the middle of a break from doing last minute homework as usual but hey im still feeling great (;

2009-06-28T16:55:00.004+08:00

i dont know why it affected me so much when the great king of pop died.

the first thing i read when i woke up was that michael jackson died.

and just hours ago the night before i was listening to his songs on his " bad " album.

i might be too young to truly appreciate michael jackson but i think he's amazing.
i watched him live yesterday on tv.
and im sad that he could never perform his last show.
that would have been awesome.

May he rest in peace.

Michael Jackson
1958 - 2009

2009-06-13T22:07:00.004+08:00

Picture of the day.

oh so hot.

i just got back from work like an hour ago. work is fun. i love my job but it's tiring even though it doesn't seem like much. the kids are awesome ! they put on a show today at the ground floor.

And after work i headed to rasta with my sister and i saw an ASTON MARTIN DB9. Dude that car costs 1.4 million bucks.

Ahhh, i would like to own that one day.

2009-06-11T16:37:00.003+08:00

currently listening to before the storm a collaboration by miley cyrus and nick jonas. they're just too cute. haha.

i have twitter now. it's entertaining. it's good for like 5 minutes on the web. cause it's practically updating your status.

today has been my only free day this week. i have tuition tomorrow and im working in the weekend. then it's back to school kids!

watched 17 again with adam and oya. zac efron is just woah.
oya had a cute t shirt that said

eff
you
see
kay.

it's so cute!

here's a video of my brother doing a magic trick. aha!

if we were a movie, you'd be the right guy and i'd be the best friend that you'll fall in love with at the end.

2009-06-06T03:47:00.002+08:00

im having a problem sleeping lately. there are MANY things on my mind.

i wonder what it'll be like if i were rich and famous. would i still be doing the same things i am now? like not sleeping and going online and watching movies.

i wonder what it feels like being friends with someone famous. somehow i cant imagine celebrities being like normal people.

its like they're from another planet! haha. okay im rambling.

and how can they live with people following them everywhere.
hey natt, you should bump into one of them! anyone of them. haha. that would be cool. hehe. okay im sorry. im bored.

aih. not cool.

4.47 am.

2009-06-06T00:13:00.005+08:00

so, since i mentioned i was a movie lover, i watched a movie earlier.
i watched hannah montana the movie.
yes i know what you're thinking, but hey it was a good movie. seriously.

my mum cried yo. hahah.
i ALMOST did, but did not. i swear i am such a kid at heart sometimes. (:

oh and while waiting for the movie to start i saw some trailers. and it got me all excited. damn i can't wait for those movies to come out.

transformers.
it has awesome written all over it.
watch the NEW trailer. megan fox. ahhh.

i've always been a fan of harry potter.
not so much the movies but this one looks cool.
also check out its new trailer.

oh yeah and about the movie. it was cool la okay. taylor swift pops out in the movie and so did rascal flatts and ty from 90210. haha.

did i just become a fan? HAHA.

latersss.

2009-06-05T02:12:00.004+08:00

i just finish watching the whole first season of 90210.
it is awesome.

anyways, i've always been amazed at how movies or any show makes me so emotional. it seems so real and feels damn real. that's why i love movies and tv shows.

current mood : amazed.

well i am easily fascinated and i still am thinking about how i love watching good movies. im gonna be working this sunday and the next weeked. hell yeah to some extra cash.

heh.

and im off to bed.

2009-06-04T22:18:00.002+08:00

hello world.

the hols are going by pretty fast don't you think? there are still so many things i haven't done yet. like rock climb, swimming, movie marathon, ice skating, add maths project, studying and all that.

is there anything fun i can do that doesn't require cash? (:

met up with carrie and kee jun today for lunch, watched a movie with mum and brother after and had sushi for dinner. yummy.

super tired now. didn't get much sleep last night.
im currently watching 90210 online. (:

have fun kids.

2009-06-01T01:11:00.005+08:00

lets get the party started in here.

so yes i ended up going for the rave. i didn't know it was a costume party. haha. just plain ridiculous and beyond beneficial.

lets see how i spent my money.
with the 6 bucks i had my dad added 50.
6 + 50 - 43 -10
so the total amount of money i have is = Rm 3.
wow, unbelievable. wait, here's the best part ...
the holidays just started.

went for a bbq today.
it was interesting. i brought my brother along cause no one was gonna take care of him at home. that was weird but oh well he kinda had fun.

no one listened to me when i said it was world non smoking day. im not even lying! haha.

random weird thing i drew.
i told you my drawing skills ain't bad. haha.

2009-05-29T17:49:00.004+08:00

Celebrate good times, come on, it's celebration time!

Ladies and Gentlemen,
the holidays have begun. Let the partying begin. Wuhooo. Okay im kidding. What partying right? Heh (:

I've been having real interesting days lately example yesterday where we went for dinner at an ALL YOU CAN EAT BUFFET.
Dude, it was awesome. Thank you Sha Jackson for deciding to eat there (: It's cheap and so worth it. Chicken Wings, Fish balls, Ice Cream and All You Can Eat Seafood.
What is there to not like?

Okay i didn't take this picture, i took it off the internet but it really is where we ate.

Mum just left for jakarta half an hour ago.

I have tons of on going plans but i am so broke i dont know how i'm going to survive. I am a money person. I need money when i hang out even if i dont spend i just need to money in my wallet.
Current amount of cash in my wallet = Rm 6 = DOOM!

Sukim's going of to Dubai later tonight.

it all seems fine but i should really ask them " how are you? Really. "

Im in the mood for party songs. The UOX Party is tomorrow.
I want to go, but i don't have the cash and i don't even know if i can.

and btw,

2009-05-24T17:26:00.006+08:00

I met up with sha and nat on friday for lunch, and got so fascinated by so many things that day. Nat's house is gorgeous. It's so totally awesome.

Had dinner with the sister, brother and izzah while parents were out. Stayed in the rest of the night. Amazingly.

Saturday morning, woke up for school. Yes, school. I had to collect awards. In case you're wondering, this is what i got. Hehe.

Bangga la, first time ever.
I plan to be there next year and to get my award for my SPM results. Hopefully.

Left early and picked Anysa up for breakfast and headed back to her place. Then Hanisah came over. I had fun. They are hilarious. Even when they're insulting you. Haha.

oh and we got temporary tattoo's on ourselves.

anysa's that says princess in elvish.

mine and hanisah's. our zodiac sign.
LIBRA.

I headed home around 7.30 and had an hour nap.
Left again at 9.15 for supper with the colleagues. I had fun. They're awesome.

we met up at ou and drove 7 cars to get to bangsar. haha. and they were like racing each other on the way there. beating red lights and tail gating. ish ish. haha.

parents didn't make a big fuss about what time i should come back so i came back at 12.30 and not a word. (:

now im super tired and in much need of a rest.

one more week till the holidays!

2009-05-20T21:57:00.002+08:00

Incase you didn't notice, i did something to my blog.
It's a little bright but hey i can change it up the way i want to.

Im developing a sort of character. A mean one. I just feel mean.
And anyone who knows me know im not mean.
Kinda. Sort of. Most of the time!

But it's really weird.
Oh well.

Im running out of songs to download ( currently )
Any ideas?

2009-05-20T17:07:00.008+08:00

sometimes, there are some things you would want to know but it's best if you rather not know. you know?

so anyways, exams are OFFICIALLY over.
i have to say i have plenty of free time now.
well this can't last long.

im pretty bored now so here are some pictures to brighten up your day (:

latest rising star,
Chris Pine

how can you not LOVE HIM?
Zac Efron.

He's the main man of The Killers,
Brandon Flowers ( is that his name? haha )

Bringing sexy back,
Justin Timberlake.

The oh so fine,
Camille Belle.

Oh oh and look what i found?
This is so exciting.

im sorry i sound like a total girl. hahaha. can't wait (;

2009-05-18T03:14:00.005+08:00

look what i found. this was WAY BACK THEN.
omg i was so cute. hahah.

my eyes hurt.
oh oh wanna see my cat?

her name is muffin.

okay im sorry im just bored.

<3

2009-05-18T00:32:00.005+08:00

it was my cousin's wedding today. they actually got real flowers. and the colours were so pretty. i plucked one out. heh.

and the pictures were taken with my phone camera btw. looks pretty awesome. im amazed.

It's teacher's day tomorrow. Im not going. Im sorry but im really tired. Last year or not i've never been to a teachers day celebration in high school.

So on Saturday i met up with a few people at Ou and the Curve.
It was good (:

Sha Jackson with her awesome t shirt.
" MOVE! You're blocking the SEXY people. "
hahahahha. totally awesome.

i look good that day.
hehe.

it's like almost everytime we go out we would wear the same colours. and it's not even planned ! great minds think alike? haha.

I remember every night we spent on weekends.
With good friends.
We did nothing but it seems like we did so much.
Back then.
Oh back then we would kick it laughing all relaxing
And taking things for granted.
We did anything for just that little rush.

Makes sense.
I love the lyrics to this song, it's so us.
we all roll along, the maine.

2009-05-13T23:47:00.004+08:00

do you realise how some people are so selfish sometimes.

does it make you think if you are selfish sometimes?

im currently very much into american idol.

it's down to the bottom three.

the closest it has ever been.

ah, so exciting.

kris allen.

danny gokey.

adam lambert.

we have 24 hours a day, 1440 minutes a day,

10080 minutes in a week,

40320 minutes a month and 483840 minutes a year.

and we spent half of that sleeping, partying and doing nonsense.

classmates, candid.

2009-05-12T19:07:00.004+08:00

i use to hate family functions. okay well not hate but dislike.
i was always the anti social cousin who sits in a corner and plays with her phone.
well not anymore!

this shows how grown up i am (:

i have little cute cousins i tell you and nephews and nieces!
my family is one hell of a big one.
and that's only my mums side.
her dad ( my grandfather ) has 13 siblings. now that's alot.

im not even surprised if im related to one of you. i met my uncle at anysa's house for raya.
that shows how small the world is. and hanisah's family stays near one of my families and they sound oddly familiar. who knows.

so anyways, i have this little baby nephew right and his name is mikhail.
OMG he is the cutest little thing.

see what i mean?

and my cousin maya.

makes me wanna have cute little kids! hahaha.

exams are almost over. i can't wait.
a few more family functions this year.
weddings and more weddings!

i so wanna watch the saturdays today but nooo. haih.

and somehow im excited for Natt's return back here. yes she's coming back. next year! but im excited already! hahah. we all should be able to drive already and that would make things A LOT easier. and cooler too (:

2009-05-08T18:05:00.006+08:00

i wish i felt like what it says. that would be ... AWESOME.

so hi, it's been so long since a proper update. i don't even remember what a proper update should be like. haha.

do you know that the saturdays are coming to Malaysia. I wanna go! but it's a showcase and it's in zouk. and we have to win tickets.

their songs are pretty awesome, so dance like.
listen to them.
it's been so long since i've been to a concert.

so two weeks ago i worked right? and omg the kids were totally awesome.
it felt like i never left. (;

so cute kan? :D

and im currently sitting for my exams in school now. it's horrible.
sleepless nights, headache's, excessive reading. just ergh.

im going crazy and like literally i'm blank.

see what i mean? haha. i was on the phone with sukim btw.
" if there's a pause, im taking my picture "
HAHA. (:

i've also been having really weird dreams. like 10 dreams a night.
it's like waking up going back to sleep waking up kinda thing.
snippets of conversations people are telling me but i don't remember what it was. it felt important. oh well.

2009-05-01T02:41:00.000+08:00

Hey, since i can't sleep i'm just gonna be very random here.

Have you ever realised that your smallest toe doesn't touch the ground? Or is it just mine?

Im currently really broke right now. Haven't been this broke this whole year. This is a first.

I have long hair now. Yes long. For me that is. Is it abt time i get a haircut?

I miss people. I miss doing things. I miss working already. I miss just hanging out.

Even though i tend to skip school often and never liked waking up for school in the morning i think im gonna miss school when we're done. Really.

I wrote half a song today. I called it graduation. But i dont remember how it sounds like. Should i post it up when im done? I wanna sing it for prom or something and see tears coming out from your eyes. (:

I can't sleep or i haven't tried sleeping. I just needed a place to vent. Goodnight world.

2009-04-20T19:13:00.004+08:00

see this? this is anysa.
stealing all the glory.
ah how i missed her. haha.

So SPORTS DAY.

it's finally over now. but i am gonna miss all the pre sports day preparation.
these things, they bring us together.

it was the last ever for us form 5's.
it was sad. it really was. i am not ashamed to say that i actually teared up during the school song. our school really is something different.
the assunta spirit is there.
okay that sounds corny.

Anyways,
after sports day we ( marcus, anysa and i ) headed back to hanisah's house where we all just chilled on the couch and talked, laugh, made fun of me. yes.

i made such a fool out of myself. ah thank god it's just them.
i was lacking sleep and whatever they were saying did not make sense.
but it's all cool.

lets see, what next?
the whole week i've been in school except thursday.
my cousins getting married. or technically already did.

my whole family is out now. except for me. i decided to stay in and study. yes study but it didn't go as planned did it?
i have my sisters car and keys but nope im too much of a chicken to take the car out.

Im working tomorrow!
I am so totally excited i swear. I've missed them kids like crazy.
Looking forward to that.

maybe i should start studying now yes?

like the clouds you, drift me away, far away.
like the sun you, brighten my day.
and i never wanna see you cry.
and i never wanna tell a lie.

2009-04-17T17:11:00.002+08:00

Someone i know is officially 17.
I dont usually do birthday posts but she's so far away.
Check out her blog for my birthday post (:

NATASHA LIM.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
I LOVE YOU.

2009-04-14T23:20:00.002+08:00

So this week it's back to blogging through my itouch and doing so instead if studying. Typical no?

I went for David archuleta. (: and I'm super tired. Didn't sleep the whole Sunday night. And I'm not even kidding when I said I didn't sleep at all. And you ask what I was doing? Homework. Yes that bad. And err also talking on the phone. Haha.

I'm gonna have to run again for sports day this year. I don't know if I have it in me.

I have fears to overcome. And I hate that I have to. I'm slacking. In everything possible. Scares the shot outta me but still not doing anything about it.

Okay I better stop and start doing something productive. You know I actually read the 6th and 7th harry potter book in 5 days. 2 books in 5 days. Like I literally just finished reading it yesterday. I wish I could be that interested in studying.

what am I gonna do when the best part about me was always you?

2009-04-01T23:37:00.006+08:00

So im finally online online and i just realized that i have old posts to post up. So im just gonna sum it up right here.

I think two days this week i was at the park. I just laid down on the park bench. It felt nice watching the sun and the blue blue sky. I watched the sun set too. The sky was amazing. I felt at peace. It's a good time to think. Maybe you should do that.

Wanna know something random? I absolutely love the smell of the blue johnson and johnson shower gel. Sabun mandi la. I made my mum buy me one the other day after a long long time. So, i smell nicer than usual now. (:

So i haven't updated about what i did during the march holidays did i? I know it's long ago but hey this blog is called memories after all.

I wanna be able to go back when im older and see what we've done and how we've changed.

So March 14th, ICC

It was by far the best ICC ever. That's good since it was our last year and what not.
So after the show we headed to pavillion. It's been a while since we last hung out there. It's been so long.

Tuesday, 17th

I met up with Sukim to go rock climbing. Well nothing much really happened. It was good going rock climbing. Im trying to make it a point where i got once a month.

Wednesday, 18th

I watched The City Of Ember with my mum and brother. It's a pretty good show.

Thursday, 19th

This was by far the the most boring day of this year.
I was so restless and just errgh.

Friday, 20th

I had lunch with Mia and Adieb and Izaan.
It's been forever. That was good.

Saturday, 21st

SUNBURST!

yea i dont have much to say.
im making me bored.

more to come. (:

2009-03-31T01:07:00.004+08:00

yet again another one of those nights where I stay up late doing the pile of homework I left untouched.

yet again another un proper post.

I have a dream to do great things. I let my imagination run earlier and it made me think of all the things I could achieve or anyone could achieve if they tried.

Have four essays due tmrw. Okay you know what, dont get me started I might just go into super stress mode and that would make
me want to sleep and I can't afford to sleep cause then my work would not be done.

ah isn't life just a ball of fun?

2009-03-27T06:32:00.002+08:00

Hey.

I haven't been able to blog properly since school started.
I've been really tired and i don't come online often.

So yes. I have back pain, I don't get enough sleep, period cramps and im getting darker by the second. Stupid sun.

Okay wait, there was a reason why i'm blogging now. But i don't remember.

I really feel terrible now. Like physically and emotionally and mentally.

Oh when i was talking to Natt the other day she mentioned a few things and put these thoughts into my head. So here it goes. Feel it.

Just picture a cloudy day down by the beach.
There's sand in your feet a drink in one hand and your best friend in the next seat.
The sun is starting to set and you feel the breeze in your hair.
You take a deep breath and you smell the fresh ocean air.
Just a few steps away and you'd be in your beach house the one you always dreamed of since you were a kid.
You could stay here all year round just you, your friends and the beach.
You start talking about how it used to be.
All those good memories.
You would close your eyes and the world would disappear and all you could hear is the sound of the crashing waves.
No secret, No lies, No goodbyes.

2009-03-23T01:14:00.003+08:00

Really quickly since it's 1.15am on a school night.

Have you tried googling yourself? Do try. The weirdest things pop up. I was just googling myself.
Even my blog came out. How freaky is that?

Especially if your name is uncommon.

Some things are making me feel all weird inside. I can't believe I'm going back to school. I'm far from average school girl. At least that's what I think anyway.

Im in love with who we used to be.

2009-03-21T15:25:00.003+08:00

so we all know i get bored easily. and so, look what i found.

i am lifeless aren't i? haha.

so i'm going for sunburst today.
it's actually going on right now but ahh malas.
i rather go later.

the big acts performing are NERD and KORN.
but im not a fan of both, im only just looking for a party. (:
plus the tickets are free. i would not pay 200 bucks for that.

Natt got me hooked on the secret life of the american teenager.
you know the show where the girl gets pregnant at 15.
yes that one. and she's right, it's a different kinda show.

this hols were a waste of time. didn't do anything productive at all.
ah well, life goes on no?

Im always here for you. I am. (:

2009-03-19T17:34:00.002+08:00

I am BORED.

Beyond anything else ever. I am so bored it's not even funny.
I know you would probably say why not study since i have free time.
Studying does not help cure my boredom.
I need to do something that can cure my boredom.

It sucks to know that i dont have any plans whatsoever.

There is something mentally wrong with me.
My mum just asked me to go to Midvalley and despite the fact that im bored out of my mind, i said no. Im really not in the mood to follow her around in Midvalley either. That's another bore fest.

So i went on a call frenzy earlier.
Called Carrie, Iman, Mia, Anysa, Dionne, Juli, Leeny, Sarah Parmar.

Carrie is on her way out.
Iman just finished her cadet practice.
Mia is driving. -_-
Dionne is at home.
Juli is at home.
Sarah Parmar is at home.
Anysa is at home.

SO BORING I TELL YOU.

Okay im sorry but im getting a lil insane sitting here.
I think i might go jogging and vent out all this frustration there.
Just trying to please myself by saying it's better then going to midvalley.
But is it? :(

2009-03-13T17:36:00.002+08:00

Is it just me or is facebook really slow?
It takes me forever to do things on facebook.
-_-

I am super annoyed now. By a lot of things.
Like really annoyed. I just feel like dying.

Okay it's not just facebook. It's the freaking internet.
But Facebook is especially slow.

So today marks the end of the school week for now.
Friday the 13th again.

There's like 3 Friday the 13th's this year.
February, March and November.

I am so not in the mood for anything now. Not even ICC tomorrow.

Oh well.

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before.

2009-03-12T22:59:00.006+08:00

Pardon my absence in the whole blogging scene these past few weeks.

let me just say that blogging will never be the same again.

before i explain that, on the 4th of March 09 I was lucky enough to go for Jason Mraz's Concert right here in Malaysia. (;

The amount of people there was ridiculous. I swear. I didn't know that many people were going.

The before and after of the show.

Unfortunately, circumstances made us come late for the show.
It was heart breaking that we were late but at least we got to hear the all time favs Im yours, Lucky and some Bob Marley.
" yeah every little thing is gonna be alright "

Do me a favour and ignore how disgustingly sweaty we all look. Haha.

Despite the fact that my first term tests starts the next day, i went anyway. (:
I met Adieb and Izaan there too.

So the coming Friday, Nat and Sha picked me up and for the first time ever i played Left 4 Dead.

It's amusing i tell you. Haha.
Pretty scary at the same time.

Then we headed to Pyramid cause Nat had ice hockey lessons.
After that, we watched marley and me.

Some people were crying like crazy.
* Cough * Nat * Cough * Sha. (:

And by the time i got back it was 2.40am. It was super late. But lucky me everyone was asleep and i guess i got away with it. Haha.

And Saturday came by,
Lets see, i watched seven pounds

and WALKED home from OU at 11.30 pm.
It's a long story so im not gonna bother.

Okay so referring to the statement i made about blogging not being the same.
Yeah one of my teachers found my blog.
Cikgu if you're reading this, HI. hahah.

2009-02-26T23:45:00.005+08:00

hi. (;

On the 21st of February we had Merentas Desa in our school and im proud to say that i got No. 65 out of all the form 5's and 6's.
Eh bangga okay. I never get any number like ever.

So i introduce to you SMK Assunta's House Captains 2009.

Francis House Captain
Hanisah Mariam

Assunta House Captain
Kimberly

Clare House Captain
Keily Lim

Hermine House Captain
&
SMK Assunta's Sports Captain
Melissa Lim

I guess im more enthusiastic about sports this year compared to last year.
Maybe cause it's the last year.

Today's the 26th.
This week is the sukantara week.
Pheww tiring much.

Jason Mraz is coming up soon and i still haven't decided if i'm going or not.
First term tests are another thing that's coming up.
I cant think about it. It makes my head hurt.

Joke of the day,
what do you get when you put a telephone into a microwave?
A HOT LINE.

HAHAHAAHHA.

2009-02-23T19:21:00.003+08:00

Since i have so much time ( Not really )
I thought i'd do this thing anysa tagged me in a gazillion days ago.

25 Random things about myself.

1. I have had girl crushes before. Come on with people like Megan Fox in the world how can you not? (:

2. I read perez hilton on a daily basis.

3. Im not less than 55 kg. HAHA.

4. I have a passion for movies. They make me laugh, they make me cry, they make me feel touched.

5. I dislike having boyfriends say i love you after just a few days of getting together with you. I cannot stand.

6. I write songs. Real corny songs. I have about a dozen of them.

7. I cannot stand the fact that someone hates me. I wont be able to sleep at night.

8. I wanna be super rich. Now, later, forever.

9. I have an itouch which i adore.

10. I absolutely enjoy rock climbing at camp 5.

11. I never use to cry at night until recently.

12. I have okay drawing skills.

13. Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohammad is my grand uncle.

14. I was a famous and active myspace user. x)

15. I am too nice to people who dont deserve it.

16. I can never get angry with anyone without smiling.

17. I am no longer into the whole clubbing scene.

18. I got number 65 in my cross country this year which i am proud of.

19. I slam the door real hard when i get angry.

20. I have a real happy tummy. :)

21. I miss working and the people i work with.

22. "I Love You" is a BIG word in my dictionary.

23. I have constant tummy aches.

24. I am really REALLY lazy.

25. I like standing under the rain just because i can. (:

so tell me, out of the 25 how many did you know?

2009-02-23T19:15:00.002+08:00

Natt Lim.

This one is for you.
Since you always complain about not having you in my wallet,
YOU ARE NOW.
feel proud, feel very proud.
ahahahha.

2009-02-22T18:16:00.003+08:00

so i wrote this song for this two people.

and i got it done a few weeks ago but i just recorded it for you guys to hear.

it's pretty sucky, i admit.
very corny just eee.
hahaaha.
but what the heck.

i'll post up the lyrics too.

btw you should ignore my awkwardness infront of the camera.
hahah. and how stupid i sound.
and how i look.
oh just listen to the song.

Lyrics.

I've lost my way, back home, to you
I miss your kiss, oh its true, can't live without you
I've lost my will, to love, can't sleep without you

Chorus

Everytime i close my eyes, I find myself thinking about you
You're the light that shines so bright, you're the one thing that i need here
Without you im all alone, you give me strength you give me hope

You would make my day, when you smile, for me
I wanna hold your hand through all this so badly
I wish that you could see what you mean to me

Chorus

I promise you my dear that i'll be there for you
Eventhough we're miles apart, I can feel you next to me
( To me, to me, oooohhhhh)

Chorus

Tell me how you like it?

2009-02-20T18:36:00.002+08:00

you know that feeling when you want something so bad but when you have it right infront of you you ignore it. you dont appreciate it.

that's exactly what im doing right now.

i cant explain how i feel. i just cant.

:(

2009-02-18T19:12:00.002+08:00

Let me start of by telling you that I did go to school on a Saturday.
How cool.

So valentines day was fun.

I had fun with them. (:

The days after Saturday went by pretty quickly.
School has been and will always be school.

I remember having a lot of things to blog about but now that i am blogging i don't remember what it was about. *shrugs*

When you have good days, you'll have bad days to replace them good ones. I guess its about time.

So, Mia picked me up yesterday ( Wednesday ) just because. (:
We went to Taman Tun so that she could eat.
We also went to the Taman Tun park which i haven't been to in ages. It was nice. The weather was awesome, the park was empty. Another one of those days.

We just drove around and she sent me home after.

And today, i slept my whole afternoon away. I've been really tired lately.
I wake up late EVERYDAY. Im not even kidding.
I struggle to wake up on time. And that sucks.

So much for going jogging earlier.

This picture is what is on my wallpaper now.
I miss this.

2009-02-13T17:57:00.005+08:00

Happy early velentines day.
It's Friday the 13th today.

Chris Brown is an ass for hitting Rihanna and causing her to postpone her concert here.
We were really excited.

There's no excuse for a guy to hit a girl.
No excuse at all.

Apparently this picture is a fake.
But if this is what she looks like now, i swear Chris Brown's career is over.
Not like it's not already.

So back to REAL news.

Valentines day tomorrow.
We have school.
And believe it or not, i am going.
First time ever. :O

So im sure ya'll wanna know what my plans are for tomorrow.
hahahaha.

Im going rock climbing with Sukim, Sha and Nat.
A year ago on valentines day i got a phone call from one Natasha Lim. (:
And also i was at OU with these people.

Ah, good old days.

I barely even talk to them anymore.
Not barely. Like not at all.
:/

So, some things have got me thinking this past few days.
Still can't stop thinking about it.

Im not worth as much as you're worth to me.
You really don't deserve me.

2009-02-03T22:00:00.003+08:00

I'm still sick. I still feel like I've lost the will to live.

The only thing I'm kinda looking forward to are the concerts that are coming up.
Rihanna.
Jason Mraz.
Sunburst.

I watched friends earlier. Friends Is awesome.
The laughter that came out of me earlier made me feel like nothing else matters.
Am I being dramatic? Haha.

Ah my homework awaits me.

I picked my brother up from school today. And I was wondering why some of the kids there look familiar. And I figured it out! They come to play and learn. Haha.

Leeny's coming to assunta tomorrow. (:

2009-02-02T23:27:00.001+08:00

hello.

if i'm not mistaken i think ur not feeling well =/
now that you have your i touch IF you can read this..
GET WELL SOON!
:D

p.s i'm lifeless.i know :(
hahaha!

<33kim

2009-02-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

So guess what, my heart literally hurts right now.

There's two explanations for this.
One. My gay partner, my bestfriend. Yeah Natasha Lim. She left and that has left me hurting.

Two. I'm really sick. Like really sick. I am in pain. It hurts so bad.

Ergh. Back to school.

Live like you mean it, love till you feel it.

above clouds.

2009-01-29T04:34:00.002+08:00

yes this is yet again one of those sleepless nights.

Im feeling weirder than usual. I have no idea what im feeling. Neither good nor bad.

Im weird and i like being weird. It feels kinda good to be weird.

I talked to two of the people i miss the most today. Watch the latest episodes of 90210 till 3 in the morning. Visited someones house in the evening and stayed home while my family watched a movie.

Kinda weird dont you think?

2009-01-23T18:43:00.006+08:00

so, haven't been going out lately therefore nothing really interesting to blog about this past few days.

thanks to sukim i tend to watch the hills everyday i get back from school.
it's pretty addictive. its not that interesting or anything its just like you wanna know what happens next. haha.

today's the first day of the holidays. finally.

i think im gonna be pretty busy this hols.
with hw and going out and work and stuff.

i went for a jog today after so long.
i want to train for merentas desa!
hopefully i'll keep to my goal.

so last weekend this is what i did during work.
it was boring! there were little kids.

dominos!

it's addictive once you get started. (:

i guess that's it for now.
im sorry im a boring person now.
hahaha.

2009-01-16T23:13:00.002+08:00

im watching moulin rouge now.
its such an awww movie.

we were 9 when this movie came out.
i remember the actors but i dont quite remember the movie.

" the greatest thing you could ever learn is just to love and to be loved in return. "

amazing songs in the movie.
it's a sad sad story though.

" hurt him to save him. the show must go on. "

its making me all emo.

" promise me you'll tell our story. that way i'll always be with you. "

" it's a story about love. a love that lasts forever. "

okay dah dah. haha.

there's school tomorrow but im not going.
im going to work instead.

was suppose to meet up with natt today but last minute change of plans.
lama tak jumpa itu kawan.

can't wait for the CNY holidays. (:

2009-01-12T23:13:00.003+08:00

okay i know i haven't been updating.

busy with school work you know. i have tons of hw to do everyday. infact im not done with mine today.

tuition every monday, wednesday and friday.
tuesday at school.
thursday is my free day thank god.
weekends, i work.

so can you imagine the stress?

so anyways im watching the golden globes now while doing my hw and blogging.
heh.

i think kate winslet and leonardo dicaprio should be together.
we all know titanic.

and after a decade,
revolutionary road.

okay gtg finish up my hw.

till then.

2009-01-02T14:10:00.004+08:00

Happy New Years.

Say goodbye to 08 and hello 09.

~~Everything~~ Changed.
Nothing Changed.

I personally had an awesome new years eve.
No it wasn't a fancy dinner at some fancy place.
We didn't have a hotel room to stay at.
We just had each other.

And that was all we really need.
Each Other.

edited.

2008-12-29T11:34:00.009+08:00

i think it is about time i got my haircut.

it's been too long.

i had my haircut. it's kinda short now.

i heard my dearest gay partner is on her getting on her plane real soon.
surprise surprise she might be here for the countdown.
she came back!

i've got to admit 2008 was one hell of a year and i cant believe it's ending so soon.
it was full of ups and downs but definitely brought loads of memories.
i try to make the last few days the best.

so here's the countdown.

24th

Christmas eve dinner with the colleagues at the curve.

ah im gonna miss working with them.

25th

Christmas day.
i was suppose to be up and about but i was sick.
so i stayed home the whole day.

26th

Bbq/Pool Party at Frasers.

Met up with some of them there.
People i haven't seen in a while.

27th

Watched Mamma Mia the Musical.

It was Fantastic.

29th,

Swimming with Hanisah, Dionne and Diyanah.

it was fun. her dad brought us to RSGC.
it's like this club in the middle of KL.
awesome much.

so after swimming, her dad brought us to rainforest sportsbar in pavillion.
her dad is so cool i swear.
lepak lepak till around 11 then left.

30th

My gay partner is back.

We went for dinner at ou after work.
we as in me, natt, anysa, sukim and andrew.

it's been so long. it was awesome. (:

31st

we honestly had no proper plans for new years eve.
everything was pretty messed up.

we went for rock climbing around 12?
by the time we were done it was around 6.30pm.

natt, anysa, sha and sukim headed back to my place.

got ready and had dinner at my place.
my mum was kind enough to cook for all of us.

after sha left, we lazed around at home.
we literally sat home.

played guitar hero, had emo talks.
ah, priceless. haha.

around 11 we left for the curve to watch the fireworks.

met up with hanisah, mia and leeny.
met tons of people too but i dont remember.

it was FUN. i thought it was the best new years eve ever.

so there you are my countdown to the days leading to 09.

2008-12-22T16:48:00.006+08:00

And this is the part
Where you find out who you are
And these are your friends

Those who've been there from the start.

- the maine.

i find lyrics in songs interesting. how they never run out of songs to write.
how all the tunes of the songs in the world are different and new.
weird dont you think? how the human being can be so creative yet so destructive.

anyways, on the 21st Play and Learn had an early Christmas Party.
and the pictures will tell you how it went. (:

we had food.

cotton candy.

presents!

popcorn.

arts and crafts.

and the kids at play and learn are so cute. seriously.

devan.

jack lim.

mira and angelee.

hoe quin.

brandon and ashley.

so yeah the party was a sucess.
then we had the after party, which was a farewell party.

its his last day.
he has been working there for two years.
quite sad la. haha.

after all this we had our own farewell. the six of us headed to rasta to lepak.
most of them are not gonna work there anymore. like for now.
they're going back to study and stuff like that.
im all alone. :(

OH AND BIG NEWS.

NATT IS COMING BACK NEXT MONTH.
WUHOO. I CANNOT WAIT.
(:

2008-12-19T23:27:00.003+08:00

and im on my knees looking for the answer.
are we human or are we dancers?

- the killers.

the songs you need to check out. (:

superhuman by chris brown featuring keri hilson.

rehab by rihanna.
to me its an old song. heard it like last year? but the video just came out and it's HOT.
and justin timberlake is in it. i wonder how chris brown and jessica biel think the video was? haha. i like rihanna. love her hair, her tattoo. everything about her la.

my heart by paramore.

for you i will by teddy geiger.
it has been awhile hasn't it? it's an awesome song.

take me out by franz ferdinand.
it might sound familiar to you. it's not neww.

i went to a bazaar today at bangsar. didn't get anything i like though.

time is moving so slow but so fast at the same time.

2008-12-18T03:54:00.004+08:00

ah this is one of those nights.
i can go online as long as i want and no one to stop me.
and as usual, it is 3 something in the morning.

it's my off day today.
i went to midvalley with my mum and finally got myself a few things.
got back home and left at 7.30.

i met up with nik for dinner at waffle world and still i didnt spend a dime. amazing.
i have to find a way to thank him one day.
i actually saw nik twice already this week. tuesday and wednesday.

ou is dead boring to me now.
like seriously. every stinking day? wouldn't you get bored of it too?

i like watching 90210.
it's interesting.

i wanna get an ipod. wait till i get my pay.

i wanna eat. im hungry.

prosperity burger looks so yummy on the ad,
maybe i should have that for lunch?
but im really on a diet. starting from now. haha.

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me,
This is what I need,
Please.

- paramore.

2008-12-11T22:02:00.002+08:00

hey world.

last year around this time it was so different.

first of all i think i stopped working already.
i was going to proms and enjoying my social life.
i never really thought about the money im spending.
im constantly on the move.

now it's almost like the opposite.

omg im being emo again.
hahaha.

i've been making a few progress in meeting the people i have not met in a while.
the other day i was suppose to meet up with anysa and hanisah but tak jadi!
went to mid valley instead with my mum.
i met iman there.

i called mia today. we had a LONG talk.
i haven't seen mia since before school ended.

i have yet to see sarah parmar, leeny, hanisah, mia, adieb, nik and loads more.
everyone's busy holidaying.

school starts soon.
part of me wants to go back to school cause that's where i can see everyone everyday without having to worry.
but the other part of me doesnt want to.
well you know. school.

it's my day off today and yeah for once im not going anywhere.
i haven't been anywhere in a while.

looking forward to the day i see mia.
haha. it's been too long.

2008-12-03T02:06:00.002+08:00

sometimes i think im too emo.
don't you?

read my blog posts, read my pm's, my status on facebook.
i realised that recently. i am always emo.

and it doesnt really have to mean anything i just like the words used.

from now on i want CHANGE.
im going to TRY to not be emo on my status and stuff.
trying to see the brighter side of things.

im playing games on facebook simply because i am bored.

just the other day i was telling natt about how i walked past parkson and noticed that they started selling school uniforms.
i panicked.

WHEN DO WE START SCHOOL?
it hit me. we have A MONTH to go.

this doesnt even feel like a holiday.

so yesterday, i ended up not sitting at home.
hahaha.

im always in ou. every single day.
when i work im there, when i dont work im still there.
every fcuking day.

sad aint it?

2008-12-01T14:01:00.002+08:00

today my friends is my off day.
and today, i'm at home doing absolutely nothing.

so anyways, updates.

i obviously watched twilight.
it was a good movie but still the book is at least 5 times better.
but i love the book and therefore i love the movie.

work is getting better everyday.
found out that a lot of people work at where i work.
i like my co workers and i like my job.

let me fill you in about what i do.
play and learn is a place where parents drop their kids of so that they can go shopping and do whatever.
but play and learn also has classes like ballet, taekwondo, baking, cooking, speech and drama and loads more.
i take care of kids. help them fix the playstation, the computer.
make sure they go to class on time.
help them change, bring them to the toilet.
also we cut out things for the classes and prepare all the things they need for their activities.

the kids there are adorable. really.
some are regulars. they come every weekend.
some are just there for drop and shop.
but they always come back.
so you know each and every kids name and they kinda know who you are.

play and learn is also an agency for kids.
we take all the cute kids and take pictures of them.
when there's an opening for photoshoots of an adverd, we call those kids.
so technically we're also a modelling agency for kids.

fun isn't it? haha.

it's been long since i talked to anyone actually.
besides sukim.
who is btw in dubai now.

i have loads of day off's on december so make sure you save a day for me. (:

2008-11-22T23:17:00.006+08:00

because im bored. and i dont know why i have a thing with doing this. (:

People Magazine's Sexiest Man 2008.

Hugh Jackman.

Among others who are in the top 100 are,

Micheal Phelps.

Ed Westwick.

Robert Buckley.

Zac Efron.

Danial Craig.

David Beckham.

Robert Pattionson.

Oh so yummy men!

2008-11-21T23:25:00.003+08:00

facebook is being pretty mean.
it's taking me forever to upload my pictures.
and im tired as hell.

work work a lil bit of clubbing and more work!
haha.

i rarely come online nowdays.
haven't been keeping in touch.

so what's new with you guys?
update me yoo.

heard most of you are working now.
im such a trend setter i swear. haha.

anyways, here are some of the pictures from previous outings.

Thursday.

My second time at MOS.
we were pretty lucky that day.
they started checking id's again.

I met Sha.

and Marina.

and a few others. (:

This was like a LONG time ago.

so anyways, i need to go out like a normal social person.
haha. not just work and after work.

i wanna catch a movie with friends.
eat lunch at ikea.
shisha at kl on saturdays.
walk around in pavillion just for kicks.
and have dinner at the curve.

i miss my social life.
the downside of working.

2008-11-15T01:15:00.005+08:00

work is tiring man.

anyways, i CAN NOT WAIT for TWILIGHT!
the movie that is.

for starters,
some sexy twilight pictures.

sexy kan? haha.

2008-11-10T16:58:00.004+08:00

so work.

the first day was ... interesting.

there were A LOT of kids. and i mean A LOT. it was pretty easy. the job is basically to help the kids in whatever they wanna do. like play the PS2 or the computer, or just play with them in general. Follow them to the toilet and help them change and stuff like that.

some kids are regulars there. like they come for classes or just come every weekend.

the kids are extremely cute i swear.
i feel like making a collection of pictures. hahaha.

so far i got two.

this kid here they call the devil.
well the name explains a lot. haha.
he throws things at people and never listens.

this boy here is named aqif!
he is so adorable.
his sisters name is ariesya.

so when there were no one left,
we played guitar hero.
hahaha.

we could play Ps2 and computer games and stuff when there's less people.
which is awesome.

and sunday was pretty much the same but with less kids.
they know my name now! (:
and i mean the kids.

this week im only working on weekends.

well yeah, im dead bored now.
i might just go to ou tomorrow to have break with leeny.

2008-11-07T02:55:00.010+08:00

okay, im bored.
this is totally random.

well enjoy. (:

The cast of Gossip Girl

Upcoming SuperStars!

The whole twilight cast. (;

Kimberly from PCD.
i think she's hot. (:

Jessica Alba's new family.

What's her name again?
haha.

Mr. Spiderman

Vince Vaughn when he was young and skinny!

The Cruise family.

Emma Roberts.

He plays James in Twilight.

katherine heigl.
i think thats how you spell her name.

shia la beouf.

channing tatum.

the jonas brothers.

Patrick Dempsey.

the guys from gossip girl.
cant get enough of them.

Hayden panettiere.

william mosely from Narnia.

I just had to, Zac Efron.

Dustin Milligan.

Blake Lively.

Chris Brown.

Paris Hilton.
She looks pretty here kan?

2008-11-07T02:03:00.003+08:00

Another week is passing by.
Damn, time won't you slow things down?

Anyways,

Monday.

I got a job!
After school, i got back bathe and straight away left to ou.
Nik called and told me she was at ou.
So, we met up we walked around.
I got my job while she was busy shopping.
Easy as that. The first shop i went in. (:

Ate at waffle world and we got a free meal.
AGAIN.
My manager is so nice to me i swear. haha.

Sukim came later and i dont remember what we did. ahaha.

Then,

Tuesday.

I met up with iman, puteri, leeny, naz and daim at ou.
They all wanted to look for jobs.
and again, BINGO!

so here is where we all work now.
me : play and learn
sukim : play and learn
naz : la senza
leeny : la senza
iman : choc shop infront of quicksilver.

so cool kan? haha.
so we can all meet up after work and have breaks together. (:

Wednesday,

I finally sat home today.
After some time.
It was dead boring!

Next,

Thursday,

I met up with sukim at centerpoint to study.
AND WE DID!
haha. for a while. i thought her add math.
then we got bored so headed to ou to bat.

yeah and that's about it.

friday,

is another day.
(:

2008-11-02T16:27:00.005+08:00

okay, im a HUGE twilight fan.
if you have not read the books, you have to.

so anyways the movie is coming out soon. thought i blog about it.

Bella and Edward.

Kristen Stewart as Bella Swan

Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen

Here's the rest of the cast.

The boys,
jasper, jacob, james, edward and emmet.

i love twilight.

cant wait for the movie (:

the cullens.

okay okay, imma stop.
im suppose to be studying sejarah now, but this is what i decide to do.
seriously, havent read anything.

haih, exams wont you be done already?

2008-11-01T02:50:00.002+08:00

im putting on weight. Yes i am. Its so annoying. Its making me depressed. But what am i doing about it? Absolutely nothing.

Im feeling really down now for some odd reason. Its not just that, its everything.

I dont think i've been this emo in a very long time. I think its school. And the lack of sleep.

Stupid exams are still not over yet. Ergh. I just cant wait to get it over and done with.

Im super tired but i find it hard to sleep. Like now. Insomnia?

I just feel like not doing anything. Not even go out or anything. Just lie down and close my eyes. Thats what i wanna do.

The weather has also been terrible. Its so hot all day long.

Im in need of a haircut. Seriously. Its getting way too long. I know some people say dont cut it cause having long hair is like taking one step towards being a girl but seriously, its getting out of shape and ugly. Even if i were to be a girl girl, i think im more of a short hair person. Never really liked the whole long hair thing.

Im gonna try and sleep now. Haih. There's just too many things in mind.

Goodnight world.

2008-10-28T22:26:00.003+08:00

im feeling pretty sucky.

so anyways, i watched my best friends girl yesterday.

alone.
i know its weird watching a movie alone. sounds pretty sad doesnt it? but i rather like it. i use to watch movies all alone but not recently. well i was in between to couples. -_- not so great. hahaha.

i just feel like being alone.

but nooo, no one will leave me alone.

school starts in a day. ):

2008-10-27T00:31:00.007+08:00

so yesterday, was sunday.

i literally woke up and called sukim, then 2 mins later mia called.

" babe, i come pick you up now."
" huh? i just like literally woke up. "
" get ready la i come pick you up. "

so yeah mia came and we headed to curve for lunch.

she drove here btw.
with her dad's HUGE ass land cruiser.

it looked like that.
but cleaner. (:

so we bumped into carrie, sukim and the rest there.
got bored waiting for anysa to come so we thought lets go for a ride.
she drove all the way to subang.

so i said, i wanna try to drive that.
she said okay.

so i drove around for a while in the housing area.
it was fun driving such a big car.
then we decided to head back to the curve.

and guess what?
I DROVE! hahaha.
all the way from subang to the curve.
first time driving on the highway.

thank god nothing happened. (:
im so proud of myself. hehe.

got back to curve and waiting for me there, was carrie, sukim, sarah and sarah parmar.
they bought cupcakes and yeah.
thanks. :D

walked to ikea to meet up with anysa.

alya and adam was there as well.
anysa's brother is sooo cute.

and and, can you believe it.
i watched high school musical 3 again.
with anysa this time.

zac efron. *melts*

hahahahaha.

2008-10-26T01:08:00.007+08:00

hey, so im sixteen.
welcome to the club? haha.

it was a sucky monday my birthday. even suckier than usual. i had tuition on my birthday.

so anyways, the whole week has been all about exams which im not planning to talk about now cause it'll make me feel like shit.

and finally on friday, i had a plan!
to go to ou and watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3.
yes you heard me.

it's honestly an awesome shit movie.
i love zac and i never want them to break up cause they're so sweet together,
well maybe except he leaves her for me la kan.
HAHAH.

it was fun. i was with sukim and the whole cinema was full of kids.
all except our whole row. dont know how that happened.
the whole row was just us, teenagers. (:
and everytime zac efron's face comes out they scream. like SCREAM.
hahahha. very entertaining but it got annoying.

sukimm.

coincidently wore the same colour.
great minds think alike.
hahaha.

then this tall people came.

tall kan? damn tall.
fiona is like 13 and she's ALMOST as tall as me.

we had dinner at delicious that day.
and we had nothing to do so we walked all the way to curve.
ah the things we do.

we headed to empress cafe to shisha and this is where IT all happened.

so sukim thought this guy was hot and she mentioned it to us,
2 seconds later leeny was going " excuse me, excuse me "
hahahha.
and she was giving hand gestures saying
" hey my friend here wants your number "
you should have seen the look on sukim's face.
X)

two nice ladies sitting next to the boys decided to help us.
long story short, we got two out of the four guys numbers.
one for fiona and the other one for sukim.
(:

" do you want the girls number? "
"nah, if she likes me, she'll text me. "

SO CHEEKY. hahaha.

but they were cute la.
we found out they were 17 and stayed around my area.

so we made new friends with the two girls we met.
they're like 28 but we have SO much in common.
they joined us and we chatted.
they are so MUCH fun.
seriously.

and they're like performers and work with events so they have tons of connections.
they called a friend down.
they called him chris.
according to them, he is an A ++++ asshole.

guess who he was?

he is,
cleo's most wanted bachelor 2007.

we were like, oh HIM!
hahah. he was friendly enough.

seriously that was the most random day ever.
random new guys, random new friends, random connections.
hmmm. interesting.

and then saturday came.

was suppose to be attending an open house at subang with iman,
but got a text from leeny instead.
asking us to meet her at kl.
so we thought why not? lets.

at pavillion.

we walked around and decided to eat at carls jr.
my first time there and the burgers there are HUGE.
too huge actually.

did the whole sungai wang and bb shit.
but we didnt shisha though today.

hanged around some more then walked back to klcc.
had sushi king for dinner.

left around 10.
got back home around 11.
pheww tiring.

oh and my cousins back from london.
he's staying over tomorrow! (:

most probably going to watch HSM 3 again.
anysa, you better come.
it's awesome. ahha.

im spending every day of this short holiday to the fullest.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

beyonce - if i were a boy.

i think i would be that boy.
if i were a boy.
HAHAHA.

2008-10-19T22:36:00.001+08:00

torn.

counting down the minutes.

2008-10-18T16:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday was an interesting day.

had a little catch up session with anysa on the phone. she was getting her ears re pierced. haha.

called hanisah to ask her something but totally dropped it when i found out she was outside her house in the pouring rain. kesian gila okay. no one was at home or something and she walked all the way from school.

haziq gave me a call and invited me to azims house for raya. so i thought why not? its been so long since i saw them.

told my mum and she was fine with it. a few minutes later i got a text from nik. i asked if she wanted to come and she said okay.

but then my dad got all crazy and didnt let me go.
-_- he says its late. it was only 9.30. sheesh.

so nik came over anyway and we just did some catching up. Its been a while. She left around midnight and half and hour later i was in the car with my mum on the way to pj to pick my sister up.

didnt wanna be alone with my dad. heh. and then we had supper at the mamak nearby. got back, read my sejarah (seriously) and talked on the phone.

i would say yesterday was infact an interesting day.

sometimes, we just have to take risks.

2008-10-12T04:05:00.000+08:00

I felt it again today. That feeling. It's been too long. Even if it was for a second. I felt it.

I hate exams. It stresses you out.

Alot has been going on. You cant imagine what im going through.

Im losing grip on everything. Everything i use to be good at. Everything i ever had. Im losing it.

My sleeping pattern is definitely ruined. Haih. What a year.

This time last year i was a happy kid. If only life were that easy.

2008-10-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

so, i think i have decided.

i know what i'm gonna be doing for my sweet sixteen.
i think.

after our exams that is.

you know how last time it was all like lets go to sunway lagoon for my birthday.
and then it was lets go for dinner.
then it was the suprise partiess.
and now it's those huge parties with dj's and a dancefloor.

there's a trend for parties every year.

so i thought. lets go old school.

im having it at sunway lagoon!
ahaha.

2008-10-08T14:32:00.000+08:00

snowboarding.

one of the things i wanna do before i die.
i watched a documentary on pro's snowboarding of a mountain in alaska.
it looks really cool.
it makes you wanna do it.

feels like so much freedom.

and of course one of the things i wanna own before i die is that.
audi tt 2008.
OMG. i soo want that car. haha.

after the raya holidays, going back to school is horrible.
studies are on as usual.
exams are starting next week.
stressss!

oh happy birthday carrie.

when i googled "carrie choo", that picture came out.
hahahaha.

well, happy 16th birthday!

2008-10-04T01:38:00.000+08:00

first of all, SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

raya has been loads of fun. have been busy since day one.
open houses all the way. it's good to see cousins, uncles, aunties, grandaunts/uncles.
it's been awhile.
next thing you know they're pregnant. they have a kid. im an aunt, again.
my family is HUGE!

a family tree is needed to know who is who. i know who they are but i dont know how they're related to me. hahaha. but it's all fun.

i feel so full of love.

so on the 30th, i headed to republic at pyramid for Carrie's Surprise 16th Birthday Party.
i just loved the way we suprised her. it was awesome.
imagine 50 people screaming surprise coming out from curtains directly in front of you. priceless. (:

the other pictures are up on facebook.
have a look. (:

and today after getting an off day from raya in the evening,
my family and i decided to watch a movie.

i watched eagle eye. it's a good movie. worth watching.

and shia looks super hot in the movie.

compared to when he was in even stevens right.
he used to be this dorky kid back then.

how people grow.

oh did i mention i LOVE gossip girl?
i watched season 2 up to episode 4.
perggghh. damn nice.

oh i did mention gossip girl before. haha.
and blake lively aka serena van der woodsen is smoking hot.

im gonna leave now before i start again.
toodles.

2008-09-30T02:47:00.000+08:00

i wish everything i wanted would come true. Wouldn't you?

Wont life be sooooo much easier?

I want too many things. The list will go on and never end till im 50 or even older.

Sometimes i wish i would just be a girl. You know like a girl girl. You know what i mean.

Changing is harder than you think. It's not easy to completely change who i am. Its like asking me to change my name or grow a beard.

I miss a dozen people right now. Like i really seriously miss them. To name a few,
Natasha lim
Malini mahmud
Anysa hamid
Shalma aina
And the list goes on.

See how i think when im lying in my bed at night.

Anyways, selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.

Happy hols.

2008-09-28T03:39:00.000+08:00

its 3.45 am and im cam-whoring with my brother. haha! im tired but i cant seem to sleep.
we can solve a rubiks cube! hahaha!

no really, i can. and so can he. as in my brother.

i was suppose to go to MOS tonight for hed kandi. but noo, parents didnt let me.

I miss MOS. especially when natt was here.
Okay, im bored.

2008-09-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

I am scared. I dont know what brought this on. I just feel scared.

Just scared of everything. It feels like all my secrets are gonna be revealed.

Its not like i killed someone or anything. But everyone has secrets they dont want certain people to know.

Im feeling paranoid. Feeling left behind. Like being ditched.

Omg. I am so confused.

I feel numb at the same time too. Its so hard to explain.

Pluss the work load from school. The nearing exam dates. The constant pressure.

Everyday is a tiring day. Everyday i wish i could just sleep through it. Everyday i wish that things would be normal.

I guess not.

2008-09-21T09:02:00.000+08:00

okay it's 9.02am now.

i can't believe i didn't sleep. (:
eyes are gonna be like shit.

no one's up yet except for my maid. ah peace and quiet.

what i was doing you ask?

i watched all 3 episodes of gossip girl season 2. (:
it feels good. haha.
you just cant get enough of it i swear.
i know it's like all drama and shit about american kids and how they live.
it's just the thrill of it all.
the " i wish it was me " feeling.
and their oh so good looking cast.
and clothes that sets trends.
so yummy. (:

i should get a life. haha.
i spend an entire night doing absolutely nothing that'll benefit me.

3 words, 8 letters.
bringing back everything i left.

2008-09-21T06:15:00.000+08:00

it's 6.15 am in the morning.

yeah i had my sahur, but no i didn't go to sleep.

i talked to sukim on the phone for almost 2 hours from 2.40am to 4.40am
somewhere around there. and then i came down to eat.
and then put the laptop right infront of me.

i dont think i'll be sleeping today.

had family around earlier since it was my mum's birthday.

it was hmm, rather enjoyable?

i'll put pictures up later.

but here's one.

cousins.

so anyways, it was one of those days.

im suppose to be going to klcc tmrw for putra's buka puasa/birthday thingy but im not sure if i can make it.

parents have been pretty noisy about the whole not studying thing.

my birthday is kinda a month away if you didn't know.
i dont think im doing anything?

have you ever thought about what would happen after highschool?
questions like will we still be friends pop into your head?

it does occasionally in mine.
we barely even see each other in school.
most of us i mean.
different colleges makes things harder.

im thinking again.
hmm, headache.

adieb came over for buka puasa the other day. ( 19th )
yeah, my family is still totally okay with him.

he had dinner with my family again.
and they just practically let me walk out of the house.
we were just going to 7-eleven btw.
but still.
then we went to sarah parmar's house.
just for fun. they havent seen each other since ever.
then i headed back home.

i can't believe i stayed home this saturday.
well, it was my mum's birthday. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM.

im gonna waste my time now.

toodles.

2008-09-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

i usually blog aimlessly nowdays.

im currently watching die hard 4.0 on tv now.

it's a thursday night, reminds me of MOS. haha.

i think i have homework but i dont think i wanna do it. (:

ineverstopthinkingaboutthings.

facebook is getting boringg!

okay im gonna stop blogging now.

laters.

2008-09-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

tagged by sukim.

this things are not in any particular order. (:

6 things i m passionate abt:
* reading
* music
* surfing the net
* shopping
* i wish i could say school, but no. sleeping, yes. (:
* driving! if i could do it legally.

6 things i say to often:
* shit
* geez
* hahaha
* okay
* mhhm
* hello?

6 books i read recently:
* twilight
* new moon
* eclipse
* kite runner
* a thousand splendid sunsets
* eldest

6 songs i can listen over and over again:
* love bug
* emotional remix
* disturbia
* take a bow
* im yours
* gone

6 things i learn abt in the past year:
* good memories are made with the right people.
* studying last minute is stressful.
* expecting something never works.
* crying is totally okay.
* missing someone sucks big time.
* moving on takes time.

2008-09-16T17:11:00.000+08:00

This is so random. Haha.

Haih, gay partners of mine.
Don't worry, you won't see a picture of me up there anytime soon. Haha.

2008-09-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

okay now i just cant stop blogging. the phone makes it easier too. (:

Its 1.30 on a school night. ergh, school tomorrow.

I cant sleep. Im listening to songs and thinking. just thinking. Im undecided and confused.

but i think i know what to do. oh how i hate making desicions.

what am i thinking about you ask. Im thinking about what to eat for sahur later. DUH. hahaha!

no, im actually thinking about much much more. I wanna sleep and not wake up but not die either. Can ah? (:

Im getting sleepy. Laters.

2008-09-14T17:08:00.001+08:00

so the other day sarah, leeny, iman and i headed to Mum's Place in Damansara Perdana for buka puasa. we joined iman and her cousin and friends there. had dinner and headed of to curve. i got to tell you it was fun. (:

haven't done that in a long timee. it felt just like old times but at a different place and with less people. haha.

miss parmar.

leeny.

us.

cheapskates. haha.

iman.

i wanna do that again. (:

oh and today's the mooncake festival.
have fun celebrating.
sorry i cant make it dionne. (:

2008-09-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

i just got back like 2 hours ago. Damn im tired. Went out all the way to kl. Will update on that later.

Moving on. I notice that when im with my friends, noting else matters. :) it keeps me distracted from all the other things. So, thank you friends. Haha.

I made a mistake a week ago. One that i honestly regret. Even though it changed things, it really didnt. It just hit me in the face and made me realise. It has always been that way.

Now im confused and i dont know what to feel. Part of me wants to let it go. Just forget abt it all. And the other part of me wants to make it better. Maybe it's abt time i stopped trying to make everything better.

Haih. What am i gonna do?

2008-09-10T15:15:00.000+08:00

Okay, so you see that two pictures up there?
Yeah, they're the reason why i buka puasa today. Haha.
Came across the advertisment and decided to have mcd's for lunch.
Im a terrible muslim i know. Haha. Its okay, its just one day. :)

& i thought i knew you well enough.

2008-09-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

avril lavigne.

so my dad is pretty awesome to get me tickets just a day before the concert. did i mention VIP tickets? hehe. (: so yeah, i went with adieb and his friend intan. i had only 2 VIP tickets so we had to sneak her in. haha. avril was pretty awesome. her voice was nice BUT i didnt feel the concert kinda atmosphere at all. VIP was all the way at the front but we had to sit. so yeah, the concert was short and i was sitting down. but overall it was okay.

next was merdeka's eve at the curve.

i had fun. it was better then my new year's eve. (:
we met up at empress cafe and decided to chill and shisha first.
but you see, curve got sooo bored we just had to go clubbing. (:
laundry and everywhere else so being mean.
the charge to go in was really pricey.
so we ended up in mystique.

i met loads of people on that day.
long time no see people. (:

this is enough update for now.
tons of add math homework to do. yuck.

2008-09-08T06:24:00.000+08:00

okay it's been ahwhile. i can't realy go online often. so anyways, i dont have much time. here's the highlights which i will elaborate later when i can.

- natt left. i miss her loads. :(
- avril lavigne concert.
- merdeka's eve at the curve.
- school torture!
- buka puasa goodness.

okay that's not a lot. haha. but yeah.

will update more later. be patient. (:

2008-08-25T18:36:00.001+08:00

so like i said, here's the update on friday night at hartamas for dinner.

had dinner at souled out then later walked over to square to shisha. as usual. it was pretty normal.

then amazingly i stayed home on saturday and sunday. (:

oh btw people i changed my number. i texted it earlier today. incase you didnt get it, ask.

this is pretty huge. me changing my number that is. i NEVER change my number. blame my dad. all his idea. hmm.

school started today, oh how i hate school.